Can't catch a break

You know those days...weeks...months...where you just can't seem to catch a break? It's just one thing after another. Since I have previously spoken of my struggle with breastfeeding I wont go into that at all except to say that I saw Mark's aunt and we were able to discover why breastfeeding Arya has been so difficult and she taught me some things to work with her and make it a bit easier. Progress! Yesterday started off so well. There were a few feeding sessions that worked out just like they were supposed to(even if they did take about an hour each time) and I felt like things were really starting to look up.

Well I went to the doc b/c I was having kidney pain and thought I probably had a bladder infection. I got some antibiotics and started them yesterday afternoon and by the evening Arya was screaming and every time I tried to feed her she would scream even harder. We concluded that she did NOT like the antibiotics. After a long evening of not being able to keep her calm we just got her a bottle of some of the frozen milk I had stored up and we were able to calm her down.

So now I will be on antibiotics for the next 7 days(I am trying a different one and tonight will be able to see how she reacts to it) and if she doesn't react well then I will be giving her a bottle of our stored up milk and pumping and throwing away the "infected" milk. All of our progress and hard work down the drain...I mean how can she go 7 days without breastfeeding and not get confused? It will be like taking 10 giant steps backwards...

Bladder infection...antibiotics not compatible with baby...probable regression...and to make things even better I have developed clogged ducts. I have no idea what could be causing them this time. Oy.

I am supposed to be drinking lots of extra fluids and all that stuff but all morning and afternoon I barely had a second to think of myself...well I thought of myself many times and became quite flustered that I couldn't pee when I needed to, I couldn't eat when i wanted to, I couldn't relax when I wanted to, I couldn't do many things that I wanted to because pumping, feeding, Audree here, there and everywhere...tantrum after tantrum. I think I had to reheat my lunch 3 times because when Arya is hungry she gets quite hysterical until she is fed...and her eating habits are so random that sometimes I have 3-4 hours between her feedings...but not this morning. This morning she decided to eat as slow as she possibly could falling asleep frequently and waking up abruptly when I set her down only to insist on being fed again. This went on for 3 hours! In 3 hours time I heated up 5 oz of milk!! for a newborn!!

I finally get some time to shower and I get out and Arya is hysterical once again. This time she was just tired and I was able to get her to sleep after about 30 minutes and she insisted that I held her while she slept. At 4 in the afternoon I finally got about an hour to myself and now Audree is awake and it's time to feed Arya again. Life definitely isn't dull right now...sometimes I really like dull...